Friday, April 1, 2011
It's new nearly 230am... And I'm wide awake, lying here in bed, paying on my phone.
When deployment started, one of my main goals was to get in shape. Now that I'm faced with a heart condition, I'm limited to what I can do. I wanted to start Insanity, but it's too much for my condition at the moment. I'm not allowed to go running like I would love to, or even jogging..sometimes merely walking across the room will make me winded... And it's not because I'm out of shape, it's something to do with whatever issue I have going on in this chest of mine. I've been trying to keep upbeat about everything, but this week it has had an effect on me.
I see how so many are doing just what I had wanted to do. I'm a bit jealous. I feel like I'm going to stand on the pier on homecoming and look like a blob.
I don't necessarily need to loose weight, I just wanted to tone up. I wanted my legs and butt to look like they did when I played soccer-kick ass. Not to mention, running helps me clear my head, and keeps me in a good mood.
My doctor has basically said I can't do any of that, no working out until they figure out what's going on... Leaving me to feel stuck inside all the time. I'm sure this yucky weather isn't helping much either. I'm ready for some sunshine.
I'm hoping the cardiologist figures something out this week so I can be released to exercise again.
Right now, my focus is going to be on eating better, cutting out all junk food, and putting in more fruit and veggies.
I might even try this 3 day detox I found on an adroid app.
Tomorrow, im starting on a healthy food kick.. and hopefully, the heart issue will get figured out shortly.