Perfect Two

"Perfect Two" by Auburn is totally cheesy- which is perfect to be on my "While you're away playlist.




When the underways first started.. well, around May sometime, I sent some of the lyrics to this song to my husband in an email. When we first met, and really started to get to know each other, we would send a song lyric to each other on Myspace. At the time, We mainly shared Nickelback lyrics- that is one of my husband's favorite bands (so, don't be surprised if Nickelback pops up at some point!). After a year of dating, we got married.. and the lyric sending didn't stop- not on my part anyway. I would sent him cheesey lyrics in boot camp, a-school I would text him cheesy lyrics and he would text lyrics to me as well. When the underways started, I would look for cheesy songs that I felt were so us. Well.. Then, I discovered "The Perfect Two". Cheesy and SO us. Minus the tidbit about getting married because we ARE married. But, I would marry him all over again.

There isn't much to break down the lyrics.. it's pretty well put. We compliment each other. <3

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly

You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly

You can be the captain and I can be your first mate

You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your side kick

You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split

You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'

Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

Don't know if I could ever be

Without you cause boy you complete me

And in time I know that we'll both see

That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie

You're the straw to my berry

You're the smoke to my high

And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)

And I'm the one for you (for you)

You take the both of us (of us)

And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

Baby me and you

We're the perfect two

You can be the prince and I can be your princess

You can be the sweet tooth and I can be the dentist

You can be the shoes and I can be the laces

You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser

You can be the pencil and I can be the paper

You can be as cold as the winter weather

But I don't care as long as we're together

Don't know if I could ever be

Without you cause boy you complete me

And in time I know that we'll both see

That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie

You're the straw to my berry

You're the smoke to my high

And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)

And I'm the one for you (for you)

You take the both of us (of us)

And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

Baby me and you

We're the perfect two

You know that I'll never doubt ya

And you know that I think about ya

And you know I can't live without ya

No..

I love the way that you smile

And maybe in just a while

I can see me walk down the aisle

Cause you're the apple to my pie

You're the straw to my berry

You're the smoke to my high

And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)

And I'm the one for you (for you)

You take the both of us (of us)

And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

Baby me and you

We're the perfect two

The Best Thing About My Husband Being Deployed

The title must sound horrible. But there are always perks to when my husband is gone- whether its for a night of duty, a week underway, a month underway OR Deployment.

The best thing for me? Is being able to clean without worrying if I'm interrupting Call of Duty. Not having to dig under the bed for his dirty work socks to wash, Not having to worry about cleaning all the stubble that fills the sink after he shaves.

Yes, my husband is a slob. Although I LOVE cleaning.. He is damn near impossible to keep up with. I know, this is the part where some of you are saying, "Just wait until you have kids!". I know. I am screwed!

My husband has been gone a little over a week and my house is SO much cleaner.

However, I miss cooking and cleaning for him. He kept me busy! Although, I do have enough keeping me busy right now with my Photography, Tshirt designs and trying to take over the world. Ok, the last part is a joke. Or is it?

Another thing great about the husband being gone- I get to eat all the Chinese food I want! He loves Chinese food, but he only wants it every once and a while. I, however, cannot get enough of Lo Mein. It is like crack to me. I am not kidding. I've ate it twice this weekend.
I also get to eat Mexican food! My husband is a weird one. He won't eat beans. The ONLY bean he will eat is Green beans. I think he associates beans in everything with Mexican food. He won't even walk into a Mexican restaurant! So, The next several months.. Although I'm wanting to get in shape, I may just be the one who does the complete opposite. I see far too much Chinese and Mexican food during this deployment.

Don't get me wrong, I'd LOVE to have my husband home. BUT he's got a job to do and I'm not going to sit around and let it get the best of me. So, here's to Cleaning and TONS of Chinese and Mexican food!

Tangled Up In You

I chose Staind's Tangled Up In You for my first "While your away" post because the song kick started this deployment.




"The song kick started your deployment?" Yes.

The night before my husband left, we wrote letters to each other. I also got him a card. The card being a sappy "I love you" card. Since I had already wrote him a long letter, and the card said pretty much what I thought- What else could I add? This song popped in my head. It's perfect. It's so how I feel about my husband. I wrote the lyrics on the inside of the card and reminded him I added it to a playlist I put on his ipod for me and him.

"You're the pills that take away my pain. You’re the light that helps me find my way."
When I'm hurting, upset, my husband is my comfort. He makes things better. When I feel lost, alone.. He is always there to remind me that he's right there with me, reminding me that I'm never alone.

"You're the hand I have to hold as I grow old."
He's the only person I could ever see myself growing old with. The only person I want to grow old with. If he wasn't, I wouldn't have married him.

"You're the shore when I am lost at sea. You're the only thing that I like about me."
He keeps me grounded. There have been several times where I felt as if I hated myself, nothing was going right- but I loved that I was with him. I felt lucky. The only thing I liked.. was him. He was IS always there to remind me how much I mean to him.

I can relate to every lyric of this song. And I don't think anyone could preform this song any better than Staind.

"I'm still Tangled up in you."

While You're Away

I did a blog contest months ago. To enter the contest, you had to post Your top 10 songs for "While he's away".

I don't believe I ever posted mine.

Now that my husband is away, I listen to my "While you're away" playlist quite often. The songs on my playlist are songs that go with my mood. I have songs that "understand", love songs, happy songs.. etc. The songs are emotions I have felt while going through boot camp, the agony we faced during a-school, the happy moments of being together, the learning of the underways and  the emotions I expect/ expected during deployment. It's a variety, different genres- everything. All music that I love and listen to regularly.

Music is a big part of my life. "Where words fail, music speaks". Growing up- many times, I would be found in my room with oversized headphones on sketching away in my sketch diary. It relaxes me. Helps me think. So many emotions are portrayed through songs. There is always a song that knows just how you feel.

I'm going to start posting a song every week with a song from my playlist. I'm going to try and explain why it's on my playlist. It would be nice to post them as I feel I relate to them, but then there's the possibility that I don't feel some of those emotions- who knows. It's too early into the deployment to say how tomorrow, next week, next month or 5 months from now my emotions will play on me. So, I'm just going to go with it.

Tomorrow will be my first post. My goal is to post every Saturday. But I'm not committing to that day. As we all know, I don't blog on a set schedule. I just go with the flow... There may be a day in the mid week where I relate to a song in some way- Happy, sad or pissed at the world and I will post it.

I think this is another way for me to express the emotions I go through this deployment because Music is something I can relate to so well.

I hope you all enjoy.

1st post will be posted in the a.m.

My Life is like a Country Song

I was working on my Photography website, and placing print orders when I got to thinking about the lyrics to a song a friend posted. Lyrics made me smile, and most of all- they made me think of my husband.

I'm not a die-hard country fan- I know, being from Nashville, most expect that I am. I do however like country, and there are a few songs that tend to stick with me. Tend to make me think a lot.. hence the blog.

The Song "Bring It On Home" by Little Big Town now has a new meaning to me.. or maybe I just never really listened to the lyrics.

"You've got someone here who wants to make it all right. Someone that loves you more than life right here. You've got willing arms that'll hold you tight, a hand to lead you on through the night right here. I know your heart can get all tangled up inside. But don't you keep it to yourself. When your long day is over and you can barely drag your feet, the weight of the world is on your shoulders... I know what you need, bring it on home to me.

You know I know you like the back of my hand. You know I'm gonna do all that I can right here. Gonna lie with you 'til you fall asleep. When the morning comes, I'm still gonna be right here. Yes, I am. So take your worries and just drop them at the door. Baby, leave it all behind. When your long day is over and you can barely drag your feet, the weight of the world is on your shoulders... I know what you need, bring it on home to me.

Baby, let me be your safe harbor. Don't let the water come and carry you away. When your long day is over and you can barely drag your feet, the weight of the world is on your shoulders... I know what you need, bring it on home to me."

Above is some of the lyrics to the song. 
My husband may not be coming home at the end of each day. But the way he and I are looking at this deployment.. It's just one long work day.

Like the song, I will be here waiting. When his "Long Day" [deployment] is over, and he can barely drag his feet- He's going to be exhausted, there is no doubting that, I'm going to be that person he comes home to. He will have someone at home who wants to make everything alright, everything the song says.

I hear people say,  "My life is like a country song".. usually when I hear someone say that, they don't mean it in a positive way. However, This song makes me think my life IS like a country song, and in no way negative. I'm proud to relate to this song because I love my husband more than anything in the world and I will be the one he comes home to. The one who waits for him.

I do love Little Big Town, and they are amazing live. I do not know why I haven't put this song on my "While you're away" playlist. It's the perfect song for it. Needless to say, It will be very soon.

True Love Waits

It is official. Deployment has started. I wanted to post one final pre-deployment blog before deployment started and well, time got away from me.

The day of deployment, I took my husband to the pier, kissed him and said see you soon. He grabbed his bags and made way to the ship. I then met a friend at the NEX and we headed to the pier for the hour and a half of family time that was given aboard the ship.

My friend and I went our separate ways with our SOs. My husband had to work. He had to muster at 0600 and because some idiots were late muster didn't start until 0630. Muster lasted more than 30 minutes leaving less than 30 minutes with him. He walks up and says he had bad news. He had to go do some sort of training and had to go immediately. Giving us about 5 minutes to say our real "See you later". I anticipated that he wouldn't get much time with me.. So, I wasn't upset when we had to part early.

I met up with my friends to wait for the time to be kicked off the ship. Some friends shared some tears and I tried to be there to comfort them as best as I could. Goodbyes are never truly easy when you love someone when they are leaving for such a long period of time.

I was ok.
I was ready for this deployment. Ready to start the journey and conquer it.

I hadn't shed a tear. I didn't think I would have. I'm not one to cry much- it's a rare thing. That doesn't mean that leaving my husband was any easier on me, just means I deal with my emotions in a much different way and in some ways, Maybe I had prepared myself a bit more mentally. At this point, I was sure I wasn't going to cry.

Of course, sometimes, in being so sure of being prepared, you then realize that just maybe there is no real way to prepare for a deployment 100%. My husband snuck me a text. The last text I would get from my husband for several months. Simply said how much he loves me and that he misses me already.  If you know my husband, you know he's not the "Wear his heart on his sleeve" kind of guy. Two tears fell down my cheeks. All because of an unexpected last text message.

I had said my goodbye, I had mentually prepared myself- told myself, "Ok, that was that.. on to the next thing.". The text was unexpected. But my goodness, it was such an amazing feeling reading it.

Watching the ship, I wasn't sad, I wasn't upset in any way. I was Proud. I have never felt so proud in my life.

The distance from my husband, deployments.. surviving on emails. This is the life I chose. The life I chose when I said, "yes" to his marriage proposal. This is the sacrifice I make. The sacrifice I make so that my husband can do his job, to serve his country and provide for our little family.

His job is to serve his country, My job is to support him on the homefront. To wait for him. To stay true to him. To above all.. Love him.

True love waits, and I'll wait as longs as it takes.

Focus

Have you ever had those moments where you can't concentrate on one thing at a time? I'm there now.

I feel exhausted, both mentally and physically. There is so much preparing and things that have been put on me to get done. I feel in a constant state of rushing to get things accomplished and I feel like I'm running in circles.

The thought that Deployment is around the corner is very real to me, I'm not panicking or freaking out. With Deployment so close, the part of getting prepared just got a little bit heavier.

Due to my husband's schedule, I'm stuck being the one preparing for sea bag inspections. He is helping as best as possible, however I'm carrying most of the load. I have to-do lists out the Wah-zoo, I'm just trying to plan my time accordingly without getting too wore down.

We could have spent yesterday preparing things, however it being one of the few times left with him.. we decided to focus on each other and spend it having fun and enjoying each other instead of focusing on what's to come. We started out the day by getting a few things he needed with uniforms and then we enjoyed dinner out, went to an arcade (which by the way, I stomped him at some skiball), went shopping, went to the movies to watch "True Grit", then back home where we had 2 movies from redbox waiting on us. We lounged until nearly 4am watching movies. It was a wonderful day.

I did however allow myself to get frustrated. I wanted nothing more than to spend the day with my husband with no interruption. I thought I had made myself clear to everyone, but I was wrong. My phone constantly went off throughout the day and had I of not been using the navigation on my phone, I would have tossed the darn thing out the window. Later, I said screw it and turned it off anyway. We found our way home pretty easily, thankfully.

While I feel I have a complete grasp on things- I'm not  really letting things get me down, I am feeling a little anxiety with whats to come- being a little easily agitated because I want that every minute and "To hell with everyone else" kind of attitude. My main focus is my husband, my marriage, and myself. I could careless about the millions of projects going on of which are unrelated to my 3 priorities at the time being. They can wait. Yeah, I am being selfish. I see it as this is the time where I am allowed to be selfish, and I really don't care if I am.

I do sometimes feel pissed at the world, but only because sometimes people expect too much from me. At this moment in time, My focus can and will only be on my husband and myself. That is where 100% of my effort is going.