Today, What I have thought for about a week or so now has become even more apparent. The person I should have listened to- I didn't. The one I should NOT have listened to.. I did. Today, was a bit of an eye opener for me. And I'm not upset, really.. I am so very thankful. I'm glad to say that this is a new chapter for me on my "Journey as a Navy Wife".
This is a more personal blog post than some.. maybe even most.
A couple months before deployment, my husband said "I don't think that person is a good friend for you. She seems to stir up shit.". He was on the outside looking in. He saw it all- I however, took up for my friend. Now, he's able to say, "I told you so.". I should have listened to him, because he is and was in this situation, a very smart man. Now, I see all too clearly what he saw a bit of then.
This IS my fault. I allowed myself to be susceptible to it, to the lies I was being fed. I didn't doubt that person- I believed them. Now, knowing the issue, I am making a change. This is an eye opener for me and maybe, just maybe some of those friendship's I lost due to my ignorance in believing someone else's petty bullshit lies.. will be rekindled. Maybe not all hope is lost.
I hope all the drama goes away because the drama is beyond annoying and I can't stand it. It's not my drama and I want no part in it or to be associated with it. I'm merely guilty by association at this point.. Now, I'm running from it... from this person.
And again, I am to blame because I allowed it. I gave in to it. I allowed myself to get on that level and believe what I was told.
Now, all that is left to do from this situation: Learn from it. Don't let it happen again, and hopefully.. Just maybe I can work on those lost friendships.