I know, I haven't been on in a while, but I've been a busy girl!
I went to Tennessee for a week, visited with family and some friends. Realized a week is not nearly enough to see everyone you want.. Especially when you have as much family as I do. While home, I made the Decision that I'm going to redecorate, well.. actually decorate (our place is quite boring) while the husband is out to sea.
I got back to Virginia last Wednesday, Friday I went thrifting with Brittany found some awesome deals. Went looking for a bookshelf.. bout everything BUT a bookshelf. Go figure. But Found a really cute little table.. PERFECT for a bedside table for JUST $14. Yes, I'm STILL excited. I gathered my ideas for the bedroom.. and am slowly getting there. It's time consuming and Oh so much fun... I'm calling this my "While you're away Project" because I'm doing little by little while my husband is underway. He doesn't know this either.. so I'm hoping He'll love the bedroom when he comes home.. Hopefully I'll be finished this week! :)
I'll blog, with Pictures after I finish.. but if you want some sort of updates on my project; check out my Facebook album The While You're Away project.
Now, I'm taking a break to finally blog.. or shall I say Update my readers.
I'm going to be doing a Giveaway soon. It'll be just one person who gets the Item. I have bought a book, Well actually I bought 2 (1 for me, 1 for the give away), I decided to buy 2 to give one away to one of my readers. I'm going to Do this one a little differently than my last 2 contests.. so, Be looking forward to that this week. I may post it tonight.. depends on how wrapped up I get with painting furniture this evening (can ya tell I'm really into this whole decorating thing?!)
And some of you know, I design shirts for military significant others. Not too long ago, I created a Facebook fan page. I'm trying to get up to 350 "likes" and I will be hosting a giveaway. One lucky fan will get a free customized shirt... but for the contest to start and for me to tell the rules.. I have to get to 350! So, Check out CRushGFX on Facebook and "Like" me... Send me to your friends too ;).
So, there ya have it! Two great Givea... wait a minute.. I have another one too! Yes.. there's a 3rd! Making up for all the time I've been away ;)
I've started my own photography business recently. I recently created a Facebook page for it as well. Once I get to 350 "Likes" on there, I will be giving away a free shoot to someone in the Hampton Roads, VA area. So, Check out my photography and "Like" me.. Christina Rush Photography.
I've noticed Lots of Ladies are hosting giveaways lately.. August must be Giveaway month! I LOVE it. :)
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Monday, August 9, 2010
Song On Repeat: 8-9-2010
This is one of my all time favorite songs. The Lyrics are great.. especially for any Navy wives. I was so happy when Leigh Nash went solo.. LOVED her with Sixpence none the Richer, but when the band broke up.. I was heart broken. But seriously, she's amazing. <3 I've had this song on my playlist for quite some time now. I was happy to share it with friends online forever ago. And today, It's on repeat for me.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
The Navy has it SO EASY!
Title catch your attention? I know there are Navy wives and girlfriends that have read that and said, "Oh no she didnt!". But it was for that reason I titled it that.. to catch your attention. I don't agree with it... it's actually something I have read a few people post that totally irks me.
I hear so many people who say this.. that have no experience with the Navy lifestyle What so ever! People who turn it into a branch battle.. Which shouldn't happen, They fight for the SAME things. For you, for me, For everyone, this country, for FREEDOM.
Let me just give you a taste of what the Navy lifestyle throws our way, just because It seems that so many have a skewed view on it.
Our men go on Deployment!
This is where I hear, "Well at least it's not a year!"... or, "Well the Navy only goes out for 4-6 months, unlike [insert other branch here], so he'll be home in no time.". Wrong! Yeah sure, some of the deployments are 4-6 months.. BUT not always. PLUS there is more to the Navy than ships than so many seem to believe.. c'mon people. With Carriers, if they are not going out to temporarily fill in for another ship, they are out for a MINIMUM of 6 months, which in every case I have seen, has turned into more! AND they do what's called "World Cruises". It may sound like a vacation, but it's not. World cruises are 9-11 months and and I have read of several ships that went out 13 months during a world cruise. They don't just sit out there in a "Tin Can" and "Party it up" like some have it in their heads. Some seem to believe it's all fun and games and they don't carry a gun.. blah blah blah. If this was the case.. my husband wouldn't have joined the Navy. Plus, knowing my husband's Rate and also his TDY status doing 2 jobs.. I know how dangerous it can be for my husband on a day to day basis, out to sea and in port. It's not at all how some see it.
Also, Ships don't get R&R with their families. They go out and are gone til the Deployment is done.
Pirate Ships are REAL!
As comical and a myth as it may seem.. They are still around. They shoot at the Navy ships, Attack ships, They've been known to hijack vacation cruise ships, etc. Every Carrier I have known to go out on deployment since I have been a Navy wife (2 years now) has encountered pirate ship(s).
There is more than Just Ships to the Navy!
I know 2 guys with the Navy who are currently in Afghanistan fighting right this very moment. One is on a shorter deployment, but he's working with the Seals, which is one of the hardest things in the Navy. The other guy I know I know over there is a friend of mine and my husband's. He is from my husband's ship and is working alongside the Army for just as long as the Soldiers who he is fighting with, a year. And when he comes home.. He'll shortly after meet up with his ship for yet another deployment. I know another guy who is about to leave to fight alongside the Army.
Also, the Navy Corpsmen , are over there with the Marines. Just because they are over there for medical, doesn't mean they don't face the heat of gunfire. They are out in the field as well, getting shot at, fighting alongside the marines.
I could continue with "Deployments", but I hope I already made my point. Let me Continue with another part of "Navy Life".
Continuous Training.. Also known as "Workups"
Ok, Let me tell you how things work with the Navy ships.. We have what's called "Workups". Where they go out for weeks to more than a month out to sea at a time, come home for a few days, sometimes we're lucky enough to get a week or two, but they go back out. This lasts for Months to a Year before the actual deployment. It's constant in and out.. Constant adjusting to them being gone. You finally get a grip on them being gone, and they come home and you have to readjust to them being home and sometimes before you can completely adjust, they are out and in again... making it a never-ending cycle of adjusting and readjusting. It can become stressful for a wife, for the Sailor.. and even more so on the child of the service member- the Navy Junior, or Navy Brat as some call them.
My husband has been gone nearly 85% of the time or MORE since April with these workups. Thankfully, I work well under stress, but Yes, I admit.. there are times where it gets to be a lot to handle and a near break down can occur. I haven't broke down yet, and I'm going to try my hardest to stay as strong as I have for this. But this is just the beginning of this journey. I have only spent maybe 10-15 days with my husband since April- if that, because of his job.
The point of this isn't to argue "Navy Life".. the point of this blog is to hopefully open the minds of the people who are closed minded and try to one up other branches. It's the same for all of us. We all go through the same things. Our Husbands, the service members are all fighting battles of this war. They are ALL FIGHTING. They work together... whether you want to see it or not, they are all employed by the DOD, they have the same purpose... and more people need to see that.
Let me just give you a taste of what the Navy lifestyle throws our way, just because It seems that so many have a skewed view on it.
Our men go on Deployment!
This is where I hear, "Well at least it's not a year!"... or, "Well the Navy only goes out for 4-6 months, unlike [insert other branch here], so he'll be home in no time.". Wrong! Yeah sure, some of the deployments are 4-6 months.. BUT not always. PLUS there is more to the Navy than ships than so many seem to believe.. c'mon people. With Carriers, if they are not going out to temporarily fill in for another ship, they are out for a MINIMUM of 6 months, which in every case I have seen, has turned into more! AND they do what's called "World Cruises". It may sound like a vacation, but it's not. World cruises are 9-11 months and and I have read of several ships that went out 13 months during a world cruise. They don't just sit out there in a "Tin Can" and "Party it up" like some have it in their heads. Some seem to believe it's all fun and games and they don't carry a gun.. blah blah blah. If this was the case.. my husband wouldn't have joined the Navy. Plus, knowing my husband's Rate and also his TDY status doing 2 jobs.. I know how dangerous it can be for my husband on a day to day basis, out to sea and in port. It's not at all how some see it.
Also, Ships don't get R&R with their families. They go out and are gone til the Deployment is done.
Pirate Ships are REAL!
As comical and a myth as it may seem.. They are still around. They shoot at the Navy ships, Attack ships, They've been known to hijack vacation cruise ships, etc. Every Carrier I have known to go out on deployment since I have been a Navy wife (2 years now) has encountered pirate ship(s).
There is more than Just Ships to the Navy!
I know 2 guys with the Navy who are currently in Afghanistan fighting right this very moment. One is on a shorter deployment, but he's working with the Seals, which is one of the hardest things in the Navy. The other guy I know I know over there is a friend of mine and my husband's. He is from my husband's ship and is working alongside the Army for just as long as the Soldiers who he is fighting with, a year. And when he comes home.. He'll shortly after meet up with his ship for yet another deployment. I know another guy who is about to leave to fight alongside the Army.
Also, the Navy Corpsmen , are over there with the Marines. Just because they are over there for medical, doesn't mean they don't face the heat of gunfire. They are out in the field as well, getting shot at, fighting alongside the marines.
I could continue with "Deployments", but I hope I already made my point. Let me Continue with another part of "Navy Life".
Continuous Training.. Also known as "Workups"
Ok, Let me tell you how things work with the Navy ships.. We have what's called "Workups". Where they go out for weeks to more than a month out to sea at a time, come home for a few days, sometimes we're lucky enough to get a week or two, but they go back out. This lasts for Months to a Year before the actual deployment. It's constant in and out.. Constant adjusting to them being gone. You finally get a grip on them being gone, and they come home and you have to readjust to them being home and sometimes before you can completely adjust, they are out and in again... making it a never-ending cycle of adjusting and readjusting. It can become stressful for a wife, for the Sailor.. and even more so on the child of the service member- the Navy Junior, or Navy Brat as some call them.
My husband has been gone nearly 85% of the time or MORE since April with these workups. Thankfully, I work well under stress, but Yes, I admit.. there are times where it gets to be a lot to handle and a near break down can occur. I haven't broke down yet, and I'm going to try my hardest to stay as strong as I have for this. But this is just the beginning of this journey. I have only spent maybe 10-15 days with my husband since April- if that, because of his job.
The point of this isn't to argue "Navy Life".. the point of this blog is to hopefully open the minds of the people who are closed minded and try to one up other branches. It's the same for all of us. We all go through the same things. Our Husbands, the service members are all fighting battles of this war. They are ALL FIGHTING. They work together... whether you want to see it or not, they are all employed by the DOD, they have the same purpose... and more people need to see that.
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Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Learning to Appreciate Red Lights
Welp, The husband is out again, workup number 7 or 8 since April? I've lost track.. he's been away nearly 85% or more of the time since then. It's crazy to think, but the time has flown by... now, Deployment is nearing. We'll get through that just as we have these past months.
As I drove to base today, to see my Sailor off.. We were sitting at a red light, at first I was thinking about how long the red light was.. then I smiled. It's the little moments we take for granted. It was the last few minutes I had with my husband, Why rush it? My mentality changed completely.. I wanted the red light to last just a little bit longer. A few more minutes of conversation with my best friend.
Sadly, Red lights turn green, my husband is probably napping on the boat by now, and I'm here pecking away on this keyboard. I'm content. Sure, I'm going to miss him.. well, I miss him a little bit right now.. but I'm thankful I was able to embrace the extra minutes that were granted by something so simple.. A red light.
Days like today... you learn to appreciate red lights, because every extra minute with him means so much.
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Friday, July 30, 2010
Congrats to A Mili SPOUSE Blogger!!
Brittany from My Life as a Sailor's Princess is OFFICIALLY a Military Spouse. She can now wear the "Proud Navy Wife" shirt that I designed for her ;)
Be sure to stop by her blog and congratulate her. :)
I'm super happy for you Brittany and Ryan!
Be sure to stop by her blog and congratulate her. :)
I'm super happy for you Brittany and Ryan!
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Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Wives VS Girlfriends... Military Style
Today I was told that Military Girlfriends have it harder than Wives. No problem that she thinks that.. but she's also looking at if from the perspective of a girlfriend, who has never been a wife.. a Military wife at that.
I do think that Both Military Girlfriends, and Wives have it hard. With some of the emotional dealings.. we may be on the same page to an extent. But me, Personally.. I believe wives have it much harder than someone who is just a girlfriend. I mean that with no offense to anyone. I have been both. So, I am talking from personal experience here.
Most of you know my beliefs on marriage. I'm one of those "Marriage is for life", "Divorce is not an option" gals. I was told by this same Girlfriend that "Wife" is just a title that doesn't mean anything more than "Girlfriend"... that nothing extra comes with it. For me, it's more than my religious views on marriage.. it is also part of my morals.. and everything I have been brought up to believe. I have his last name.. He is mine and I am his. I am very old fashioned when it comes to my beliefs on marriage. Thankfully, I'm married to a great man who feels the same as I do. Back to the point..
Girlfriends have it tough, we all know it can be rough being the significant other to a service member. BUT there is a reason you have the title of just 'Girlfriend'. That is between you and your boyfriend.. whether he hasn't popped the question (he's not ready..), the two of you are waiting, etc. That's between the two of you. BUT you have it no tougher than a wife who is dealing with holding down the homefront. Just like I KNOW I don't have it harder than a military wife with children.. and I'm sure children have it harder than wives emotionally.
The title of a wife means a lot more than just being a girlfriend. Sorry if I trampled anyone's feelings.. this is my belief. Marriage is the unity of 2 families. Being a girlfriend is the beginning state to what COULD possibly turn into something more.. a beautiful marriage.You can be madly in love with each other, but the title of "wife" or "Husband" IS supposed to mean something more. Sadly, too many people take that for granted now days.
I'm told that Girlfriend's don't get the support and respect that wive do. But in all actuality.. You can have just as much support, just depends on where you go to get it from.. and what you do to get it. You have access to the same online forums and support groups as military wives do.
As far as respect.. That's going to be anywhere and not just with a military relationship. Girlfriends are not wives and are seen as being expendable. Tough to swallow, but it's the truth. And I know our FRG will allow girlfriends to the meetings. So will many other Command Family support groups.
Wives ARE held to a higher standard than girlfriends, as they should be. Marriages are supposed to be forever, girlfriends are the trials to finding the one you want to spend "Forever" with. That's how it's supposed to go. On top of being married to the one we [wives] love, we are also married to the military and are held responsible for so much more.
I asked on Facebook "Who do you feel has it harder?". I got a couple Girlfriend votes, and many many wives votes. As already stated, I'm on the Wife vote. For the most part, people seem to feel that it's harder on wives because of everything we deal with on the homefront as well as the emotional aspects of it. Some feel that Girlfriends have it harder because for some there is more distance. I have some that said being a girlfriend was easier because the were apart and were use to the distance when deployment came. Etc. If you are my friend on Facebook you can read the responses. I'm not going to post them here as I had originally intended because this post would become a mile long.. and it's getting there already.
To sum it all up..
We all face some of the same issues emotionally. So, who's really one to say one "Title" ups the other.. however in my situation and many others.. Wives feel we have it harder even emotionally.. and then with all the things that marriage bring as well, bring more challenges than that of a military girlfriend. However, being a girlfriend is hard as well. It can be emotionally draining. It is hard. We both have some stress and anxiety. Some deal with it better than others. For one wife it may be easy to deal with, she is use to it.. and for another, it can be agonizing. The same for the emotional standpoint for a girlfriend.
Either way, we are all in this together. We all make sacrifices for the lifestyle we are apart of.
I do think that Both Military Girlfriends, and Wives have it hard. With some of the emotional dealings.. we may be on the same page to an extent. But me, Personally.. I believe wives have it much harder than someone who is just a girlfriend. I mean that with no offense to anyone. I have been both. So, I am talking from personal experience here.
Most of you know my beliefs on marriage. I'm one of those "Marriage is for life", "Divorce is not an option" gals. I was told by this same Girlfriend that "Wife" is just a title that doesn't mean anything more than "Girlfriend"... that nothing extra comes with it. For me, it's more than my religious views on marriage.. it is also part of my morals.. and everything I have been brought up to believe. I have his last name.. He is mine and I am his. I am very old fashioned when it comes to my beliefs on marriage. Thankfully, I'm married to a great man who feels the same as I do. Back to the point..
Girlfriends have it tough, we all know it can be rough being the significant other to a service member. BUT there is a reason you have the title of just 'Girlfriend'. That is between you and your boyfriend.. whether he hasn't popped the question (he's not ready..), the two of you are waiting, etc. That's between the two of you. BUT you have it no tougher than a wife who is dealing with holding down the homefront. Just like I KNOW I don't have it harder than a military wife with children.. and I'm sure children have it harder than wives emotionally.
The title of a wife means a lot more than just being a girlfriend. Sorry if I trampled anyone's feelings.. this is my belief. Marriage is the unity of 2 families. Being a girlfriend is the beginning state to what COULD possibly turn into something more.. a beautiful marriage.You can be madly in love with each other, but the title of "wife" or "Husband" IS supposed to mean something more. Sadly, too many people take that for granted now days.
I'm told that Girlfriend's don't get the support and respect that wive do. But in all actuality.. You can have just as much support, just depends on where you go to get it from.. and what you do to get it. You have access to the same online forums and support groups as military wives do.
As far as respect.. That's going to be anywhere and not just with a military relationship. Girlfriends are not wives and are seen as being expendable. Tough to swallow, but it's the truth. And I know our FRG will allow girlfriends to the meetings. So will many other Command Family support groups.
Wives ARE held to a higher standard than girlfriends, as they should be. Marriages are supposed to be forever, girlfriends are the trials to finding the one you want to spend "Forever" with. That's how it's supposed to go. On top of being married to the one we [wives] love, we are also married to the military and are held responsible for so much more.
I asked on Facebook "Who do you feel has it harder?". I got a couple Girlfriend votes, and many many wives votes. As already stated, I'm on the Wife vote. For the most part, people seem to feel that it's harder on wives because of everything we deal with on the homefront as well as the emotional aspects of it. Some feel that Girlfriends have it harder because for some there is more distance. I have some that said being a girlfriend was easier because the were apart and were use to the distance when deployment came. Etc. If you are my friend on Facebook you can read the responses. I'm not going to post them here as I had originally intended because this post would become a mile long.. and it's getting there already.
To sum it all up..
We all face some of the same issues emotionally. So, who's really one to say one "Title" ups the other.. however in my situation and many others.. Wives feel we have it harder even emotionally.. and then with all the things that marriage bring as well, bring more challenges than that of a military girlfriend. However, being a girlfriend is hard as well. It can be emotionally draining. It is hard. We both have some stress and anxiety. Some deal with it better than others. For one wife it may be easy to deal with, she is use to it.. and for another, it can be agonizing. The same for the emotional standpoint for a girlfriend.
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Monday, July 26, 2010
Expressing Yourself -vs- OPSEC
Today, I was directed to a blog post that urked one of my friends to see how I felt about it. Well, the more I sit here and think about it.. the more I let it bother me. Hence the blog.
First off, let me just say that OPSEC is something I follow all the time, as ANYONE associated to a service member should.
After reading the blog post Ah, OPSEC posted on Semper Spouse by "Alpha Wife", I was absolutely disgusted. I posted the link her blog post on Facebook as well. Seems so many agree with me, as they should.. on this subject anyway.
If you didn't click the Links above to read her post, let me just break it down some:
"if I find myself needing to share some of them in order to get something off my chest, I will." [referring to sharing deployment details]
She finds it alright to put her husband and his unit at risk for her to "Get something off her chest". If my husband was in her husband's command.. I would be livid. Hell, this upsets me and he's not connected to my husband!
"So there's a big middle finger to OPSEC, I suppose. They can't silence me and expect me to let everything build up inside me just because theyare a bunch of paranoids have set guidelines that they think every spouse should adhere to."
Paranoids? Try concerned for the safety of our men and women who are fighting over there this very moment, and any person wearing a uniform serving in the United States Military. They have set these guidelines for a reason. And by YOU being in a relationship with a service member it is YOUR responsibility to adhere to them.
"I have a blog so that I can spill things the way I see it. And if one sneaky terrorists came to MY blog and decided to do any no-good deed to whoever because of details that I shared, then whatever, I'll take responsibility."
By this.. She is saying that she will take responsibility.. Is she saying that she will gladly take responsibility of a wounded service member, or even worse a fallen service member?! Is she the one who will tell a child that her father was killed because she couldn't keep her mouth shut and didn't care that she put so many at risk just so she could express herself? Yes, I'm on a rant. I'm livid.
Is it just me, or is the linked post a very selfish and disgusting post? We would all love to go on and on about when our loved one is coming home, or rant about how we don't want them to leave on "such and such" date. BUT is it really worth it to put your husband in harms way? NO IT'S NOT and if you think it is.. YOU ARE ONE SICK AND TWISTED PERSON!
You can express yourself without posting any information putting the Military at risk. I know this.. I have been doing it for a while now with My brother being in the service and now my husband. Not just me, but the family members of service members I'm friends with in person and Facebook as well.. It doesn't just stop there.. look at all the military significant others who post blogs.. They express themselves and THEY KEEP THEIR LOVED ONES SAFE BY NOT POSTING SENSITIVE INFORMATION!
Seriously, Some people do not need to be allowed to be associated with ANYTHING dealing with the Military. I pray to God that her husband doesn't know she poss the foolish mess that she has been.
First off, let me just say that OPSEC is something I follow all the time, as ANYONE associated to a service member should.
After reading the blog post Ah, OPSEC posted on Semper Spouse by "Alpha Wife", I was absolutely disgusted. I posted the link her blog post on Facebook as well. Seems so many agree with me, as they should.. on this subject anyway.
If you didn't click the Links above to read her post, let me just break it down some:
"if I find myself needing to share some of them in order to get something off my chest, I will." [referring to sharing deployment details]
She finds it alright to put her husband and his unit at risk for her to "Get something off her chest". If my husband was in her husband's command.. I would be livid. Hell, this upsets me and he's not connected to my husband!
"So there's a big middle finger to OPSEC, I suppose. They can't silence me and expect me to let everything build up inside me just because they
Paranoids? Try concerned for the safety of our men and women who are fighting over there this very moment, and any person wearing a uniform serving in the United States Military. They have set these guidelines for a reason. And by YOU being in a relationship with a service member it is YOUR responsibility to adhere to them.
"I have a blog so that I can spill things the way I see it. And if one sneaky terrorists came to MY blog and decided to do any no-good deed to whoever because of details that I shared, then whatever, I'll take responsibility."
By this.. She is saying that she will take responsibility.. Is she saying that she will gladly take responsibility of a wounded service member, or even worse a fallen service member?! Is she the one who will tell a child that her father was killed because she couldn't keep her mouth shut and didn't care that she put so many at risk just so she could express herself? Yes, I'm on a rant. I'm livid.
Is it just me, or is the linked post a very selfish and disgusting post? We would all love to go on and on about when our loved one is coming home, or rant about how we don't want them to leave on "such and such" date. BUT is it really worth it to put your husband in harms way? NO IT'S NOT and if you think it is.. YOU ARE ONE SICK AND TWISTED PERSON!
You can express yourself without posting any information putting the Military at risk. I know this.. I have been doing it for a while now with My brother being in the service and now my husband. Not just me, but the family members of service members I'm friends with in person and Facebook as well.. It doesn't just stop there.. look at all the military significant others who post blogs.. They express themselves and THEY KEEP THEIR LOVED ONES SAFE BY NOT POSTING SENSITIVE INFORMATION!
Seriously, Some people do not need to be allowed to be associated with ANYTHING dealing with the Military. I pray to God that her husband doesn't know she poss the foolish mess that she has been.
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Thursday, July 22, 2010
Sometimes You Just have to Flick the World Off and Shut the Door
Thank you to everyone who sent supportive comments to my last blog post. They meant a lot to me and were very much needed. There was more to the situation then what was posted, but only a select few people really know the whole thing. I prefer to keep it that way.
Since my last blog post, I have been keeping myself very busy, and kept myself away from blogger and away from Facebook. So, now.. I'm trying to catch up. I've missed alot! But, I'm happy I took time for myself. We all need time to ourselves every now and then.
I'm so happy I have some very supportive friends and followers on my blog. There are people who are always there for you, and in a situation when you truly need a friend, you find out who your closest friends really are.
I got tons of support, and honestly didn't really expect anything. I just needed a place to let my feelings come out.. and my blog is always that place. I received so many comments on here and also on FB (my blog feeds to my facbook profile), all of them uplifting (well, with the exception of one very rude comment), and supportive. Again, thank you. Although I do not know many of you who read this, I feel like I have someone who listens.
When all this happened, I bottled it all up. I guess I felt it was easier to deal with if it didn't get talked about. Well, as most of us know.. bottling things up isn't the best thing to do. I had my moment.
I received a text from a friend that makes me smile, and at the same time is oh so very true (minus the fact that she can be a bitch.. I've never seen it lol). It said :
In the time that I was away, I did 3 shoots. I did a Maternity shoot, Family shoot and just today I did a 1st birthday shoot. Once I get my photography Blog going, I will do posts about each shoot. I'll post a link here when I get it all pretty for those who want to see more (hopefully someone!) Meanwhile, here's a little preview:
To the ladies who one my most recent contest, Please email me. I have only Heard from Brittany, and would like to get you your prizes! CRushGFX@yahoo.com.
Hopefully I will get some good posts going on this well. I now have 175 followers... Wowza! If you have anything you would like me to blog about or a question, Post a comment. I'll get on it! :)
Since my last blog post, I have been keeping myself very busy, and kept myself away from blogger and away from Facebook. So, now.. I'm trying to catch up. I've missed alot! But, I'm happy I took time for myself. We all need time to ourselves every now and then.
I'm so happy I have some very supportive friends and followers on my blog. There are people who are always there for you, and in a situation when you truly need a friend, you find out who your closest friends really are.
I got tons of support, and honestly didn't really expect anything. I just needed a place to let my feelings come out.. and my blog is always that place. I received so many comments on here and also on FB (my blog feeds to my facbook profile), all of them uplifting (well, with the exception of one very rude comment), and supportive. Again, thank you. Although I do not know many of you who read this, I feel like I have someone who listens.
When all this happened, I bottled it all up. I guess I felt it was easier to deal with if it didn't get talked about. Well, as most of us know.. bottling things up isn't the best thing to do. I had my moment.
I received a text from a friend that makes me smile, and at the same time is oh so very true (minus the fact that she can be a bitch.. I've never seen it lol). It said :
I realize I am always a positive person. I don't think that's a bad quality to have.. however, Who said you can't have a bad day, or that you won't face hard situations? It's ok to have a bad day.. to let people see you upset. EVERYONE has a bad day from time to time."Sometimes I feel like you don't let yourself have a bad day, where you stay in your pjs and just do whatever you want. You try to be positive all the time. When sometimes you just have to flick the world off for a day and shut the door. You're so sweet to everyone all the time. Take a lesson from someone who can be a real bitch at times"
In the time that I was away, I did 3 shoots. I did a Maternity shoot, Family shoot and just today I did a 1st birthday shoot. Once I get my photography Blog going, I will do posts about each shoot. I'll post a link here when I get it all pretty for those who want to see more (hopefully someone!) Meanwhile, here's a little preview:
To the ladies who one my most recent contest, Please email me. I have only Heard from Brittany, and would like to get you your prizes! CRushGFX@yahoo.com.
Hopefully I will get some good posts going on this well. I now have 175 followers... Wowza! If you have anything you would like me to blog about or a question, Post a comment. I'll get on it! :)
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Friday, July 16, 2010
Christina, Just Keep Smiling.
I'm stressed.. and it's not because my husband is away.. I mean, I miss him and it would be so much easier if he were home right now, but that's not why I'm stressed. Maybe stressed isn't the right word.. I'm happy, but at the same time, I feel like I'm loosing it? Mixed emotions with so much going on. I don't know what I'm feeling in all honesty.
I handle these workups quite well. I'm proud of myself for that. I have control over my emotions pretty well. Occasionally things get to me, and until I made this blog, noone other than my husband knew anything that ran through this head of mine, I guess because no one truly wanted to listen. But lately.. my emotions are getting the best of me.
I'm always in a good mood, even when I'm upset.. I'm always the one smiling... and staying positive. Noone ever sees me upset. I don't like for people to see me upset.. and on the days where I don't feel like smiling, I smile anyways.. and make the day a good one. But today, I feel like someone just hit the replay button on my emotions from last month, refer to the post "Not keeping it bottled up" .. 6th paragraph. It didn't happen again, I'm just feeling those emotions as if I had, but times 1,000 right now.
The past couple days I have been happy, and sad all at the same time. That mess will screw with your head.. I can't seem to get a grip on it. I see pregnant friends.. or friends with kids.. and it makes me smile so much, but at the same time, my heart is aching. I'm jealous too, why are they so lucky?
I want to talk about it.. but I don't know how, or noone wants to listen.. or they don't understand. What am I wanting to hear from them? Or do I want them to just say nothing and listen? The baby conversation comes up and I'll say we're not having any luck yet. The response I always get it "Well, you haven't been trying for long".. For some reason, that just bothers me. The person knows I've miscarried, and so what if we've only been "officially" trying for 4 months.. in the past 2 years we've had 3 forsure miscarriages, and possibly 2 others. I would rather not get pregnant at all than to go through a miscarriage.. again.
Maybe I need to let myself think about all these emotions and get it all out there.. maybe even a good cry, even that's hard for me to do. I keep myself so busy so that I have no time to think about it.. that the slightest bit of downtime, my mind is flooded with all sorts of questions, and what ifs.. etc. I knew I should have went to bed an hour ago.. I could hardly keep my eyes open and now, here I am... with a flooded mind.
With this underway, I have found myself just wanting to stay home. I feel comfortable at home. I have fun when I go out with the girls, but I see their babies, or they talk about kids.. and those emotions start to come back. I'll be having fun, happy.. but on the inside, I'm being tortured. I find myself not engaging in conversations as much.. being more reserved at times... and those of you who know me on a personal level.. know that sometimes It's hard to shut me up! Don't get me wrong, I love talking about babies.. but under the circumstances, it kills me. Something that makes me so happy, is ripping me apart at the same time.
I'm going to the doctor in a few weeks. I'm hoping that he can ease my mind a little bit and maybe give me an insight to what's going on or what I can do.
I try to stay positive, and I tell myself this is in God's hands.. but I also find myself questioning God. I know I shouldn't, but sometimes I think "If now is not the right time, then why make me go through this so many times?". I feel like I'm almost at the point where I don't want to try anymore. That maybe I'm not meant to be a mommy. Ugh, that hurts.

Wow, I guess blogging does help some. Oddly enough, I feel like someone listened.. and I'm not really talking to anyone directly.. just typing to a screen.
Off to bed. Tomorrow is a whole New day. Christina, Just keep smiling.
I handle these workups quite well. I'm proud of myself for that. I have control over my emotions pretty well. Occasionally things get to me, and until I made this blog, noone other than my husband knew anything that ran through this head of mine, I guess because no one truly wanted to listen. But lately.. my emotions are getting the best of me.
I'm always in a good mood, even when I'm upset.. I'm always the one smiling... and staying positive. Noone ever sees me upset. I don't like for people to see me upset.. and on the days where I don't feel like smiling, I smile anyways.. and make the day a good one. But today, I feel like someone just hit the replay button on my emotions from last month, refer to the post "Not keeping it bottled up" .. 6th paragraph. It didn't happen again, I'm just feeling those emotions as if I had, but times 1,000 right now.
The past couple days I have been happy, and sad all at the same time. That mess will screw with your head.. I can't seem to get a grip on it. I see pregnant friends.. or friends with kids.. and it makes me smile so much, but at the same time, my heart is aching. I'm jealous too, why are they so lucky?
I want to talk about it.. but I don't know how, or noone wants to listen.. or they don't understand. What am I wanting to hear from them? Or do I want them to just say nothing and listen? The baby conversation comes up and I'll say we're not having any luck yet. The response I always get it "Well, you haven't been trying for long".. For some reason, that just bothers me. The person knows I've miscarried, and so what if we've only been "officially" trying for 4 months.. in the past 2 years we've had 3 forsure miscarriages, and possibly 2 others. I would rather not get pregnant at all than to go through a miscarriage.. again.
Maybe I need to let myself think about all these emotions and get it all out there.. maybe even a good cry, even that's hard for me to do. I keep myself so busy so that I have no time to think about it.. that the slightest bit of downtime, my mind is flooded with all sorts of questions, and what ifs.. etc. I knew I should have went to bed an hour ago.. I could hardly keep my eyes open and now, here I am... with a flooded mind.
With this underway, I have found myself just wanting to stay home. I feel comfortable at home. I have fun when I go out with the girls, but I see their babies, or they talk about kids.. and those emotions start to come back. I'll be having fun, happy.. but on the inside, I'm being tortured. I find myself not engaging in conversations as much.. being more reserved at times... and those of you who know me on a personal level.. know that sometimes It's hard to shut me up! Don't get me wrong, I love talking about babies.. but under the circumstances, it kills me. Something that makes me so happy, is ripping me apart at the same time.
I'm going to the doctor in a few weeks. I'm hoping that he can ease my mind a little bit and maybe give me an insight to what's going on or what I can do.
I try to stay positive, and I tell myself this is in God's hands.. but I also find myself questioning God. I know I shouldn't, but sometimes I think "If now is not the right time, then why make me go through this so many times?". I feel like I'm almost at the point where I don't want to try anymore. That maybe I'm not meant to be a mommy. Ugh, that hurts.

Wow, I guess blogging does help some. Oddly enough, I feel like someone listened.. and I'm not really talking to anyone directly.. just typing to a screen.
Off to bed. Tomorrow is a whole New day. Christina, Just keep smiling.
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Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Drinking on The Job
I'm blogging about this while a conversation is going on on Facebook... This on is about sending our SO's things we shouldn't when it comes to deployment. Some of you may not agree with me on this, but that is fine. We are all entitled to our own opinions. However, for those of you who disagree with me.. I'm appalled that you think it's alright. Ok, to the point. By the way.. this is going to be a long post... so grab some popcorn.
Conversation came up about things you can't send to our boys while they are on Deployment. Things got heated. Especially for me in the end.
Someone brought up how you are not supposed to send tobacco products (dip, cigarettes, etc). Then wives got to talking about ways to sneak them.
Although, I think it's silly we are not supposed to send them these things, they have set these rules for a reason, whether it be stupid or not.. they are there. And if you break the rules and send your husband these things.. You risk getting him in trouble.
This isn't the part I got heated about. Even though I do think it's stupid to send these.
Like tobacco products, ALCOHOL is NOT ALLOWED! This is NO WAY is okay to send! There was a girl talking about how she would hide alcohol in packages to send to her husband while he was away on Deployment. I thought this was completely stupid. However, I did say "I don't think it's good for us to send them anything that breaks the rules. That is my opinion. Is it really worth the risk of getting them in trouble? It's not worth it. My husband dips, and enjoys an occasional drink. I will not send ANYTHING that will get him in trouble. You send him something that is "Not Allowed" and he gets caught.. he's the one who gets in trouble and it will show in his service records.I don't know about other branches, but with the Navy, it will reflect badly on his evals and could cause him to loose out on a promotion." Then things start to get heated.
A few others posted similar to what I said, some being a little more blunt in saying how stupid they thought it was. Then a comment that started the "Battle". (her spelling errors were left untouched)
"im sorry but for what our men do i think they deserve a sip or two or a hit or two off a smokeor a bottle. Sometimes its nice. Think about this. A high stress situation u miss your family your hot your tired and just something to make you forget for a split second what ever it may be wouldnt you want that? I think its unfair to critisize what these women have to done just because it makes their husbands happy for a little shot bottle of whiskey or a pack of smokes. Thats not fair to tell them they are in the wrong. For what our spouses do is hard. "
This rubbed me the wrong way, but I kept my composer as best as possible. My reply:
"It's ok for them to want to relax, but doing something to impair one's judgment while in a war zone, where they are fighting alongside other mean in women.. isn't the way to do it. This is their job.. and if you have a job and you are caught "Drinking on the job" do you not get fired? Yes, you do!
So, why does it make it ok for someone who is "Working".. and working with a Gun alright to drink?"
There were several other comments from other ladies as well. But I'm not going to post them all.. there are tons. But all on the same side as I am.
Her Reply to me: "@ christina i feel sorry for you." <- That irritated me even more. She also went on to tell me I needed to "chill", That it wasn't a big deal. She went on to say things about how it doesn't affect others.. etc.
My reply: "You feel sorry for me? Because I would like to keep my husband and the men and women he serves with safe?"
Some girls who agree with me posted : "Ok I'm about to get rude........[girl's name]..... SERIOUSLY?? That was over the line. You are simply being given reasons why our opinions is that it is NOT a good idea. I pray to God that my husband is not working with someone who's wife is sending him alcohol because THERE'S A REASON THEY AREN'T SUPPOSED TO HAVE IT. It is a major safety issue for 1. YOUR spouse for 2. everyone around him. Are the risks of sending contraband seriously worth a court martial, dishonorable discharge, or DEATH?"
The girl who thinks it's ok to send it never replied to anyone BUT me. saying
"Worry about you and yours and not what some one else does. Its not your spouse and their spouse isnt deployed with yours. Worry about keeping you and yours safe not some one else. Its like you're trying to tell some one else how to raise thier kid."
A few other comments from others:
"wow acohol ? seriously ? yeah hey lets be irresponsable and send some soldiers who are in war, carry weapons and can get attacked by surprise some alc ! yay ! so when they are drunk ( which btw goes against regulations fyi) they wont be able to be 100% there for when one of those attacks happen , endangering not only themselfs but theire entire .unit....yeah definatly a good idea....btw im case no one noticed i was being sarcastic."
"uve got to understand where we are coming from, what if for some reason their tolerance isnt as high as it was before they left and u send alcohol thinking oh its ok....well think would u want to get a call saying ur soldiers been wounded badly or killed...or even find out ur best friends husband got killed because urs wasnt paying attention to ... have their back...thats why people are getting upset. would u want another wife to send it and urs get killed because they send it to their hubby??? u know u would, anybody would"
"Alcohol & guns are just a bad mixture... thats common sense."
"btw [girl's name who thinks it's ok]....just wondering, since you agree with them drinking while in a very very indeed stressful time, do you agree with them just taking a hit or two of a joint ? same thing right ? illegal just the same while deployed than a joint, so do you agree with a drunk and or high soldier to carry a gun around?"
"i think the cigs thing is ridiculous, yes. but smoking cigs doesn't impair the soldier's actions. alcohol(even a small amount) will. like one person previously stated u wouldnt drink on the job would u? well our soldiers are on the job 24/7 while they are deployed. for those of you who think i'm overreacting, well think what u want. i'm so glad the wives where i am at wouldn't ever think of being so stupid."
"call me overreacting if you want. but my husbands life and therefore my FAMILIES well being relies on every other soldier in his unit. so ONE wife sending booze affects every other wives potentially. im NOT saying you are a bad person. i AM saying you made a poor choice and still apparently dont see the issue with it. how BAD would you feel if the next time you sent booze an incident occurred and your hubby and one of his battle buddies were injured? there is a lifelong guilt trip right there"
Then the girl posted this: (the part that set me off-the highlighted parts)
"sorry drama ladies my hsuabdn isnt a soldier. Mine floats around so yes i do agree if my husband gets a shot or two! It has nothing to do with me i think of my husband first. If he asks for a pack of cigs and i cant send them but they are legal then there is something up. See its different because ... my husband doesnt walkk around with a gun instead he plays with real toys. So of course im not worried!! "
My Reply: "[girl's name], Now I'm pissed. MY husband is in the Navy as well. He doesn't just "FLOAT AROUND" My husband works his ass off, and My husband carries a gun ON THE SHIP. So yes, YOU could be affecting MY HUSBAND directly by the stupidity of what you are doing."
Another girl to the "Ok with Alcohol" girl:
"Wow.....so because he's on a boat you think he's safe? Sure they would have liked to have known that during Pearl Harbor. Sure hope that ship never gets called to back up an important mission."
Me to the girl above: "I agree. And every ship can affect other ships.. their schedule, their ports.. everything."
I left it at that. Now going back to that thread. Am I wrong to be heated? What is your opinion on Sending your SO alcohol when you KNOW it's not allowed?
Conversation came up about things you can't send to our boys while they are on Deployment. Things got heated. Especially for me in the end.
Someone brought up how you are not supposed to send tobacco products (dip, cigarettes, etc). Then wives got to talking about ways to sneak them.
Although, I think it's silly we are not supposed to send them these things, they have set these rules for a reason, whether it be stupid or not.. they are there. And if you break the rules and send your husband these things.. You risk getting him in trouble.
This isn't the part I got heated about. Even though I do think it's stupid to send these.
Like tobacco products, ALCOHOL is NOT ALLOWED! This is NO WAY is okay to send! There was a girl talking about how she would hide alcohol in packages to send to her husband while he was away on Deployment. I thought this was completely stupid. However, I did say "I don't think it's good for us to send them anything that breaks the rules. That is my opinion. Is it really worth the risk of getting them in trouble? It's not worth it. My husband dips, and enjoys an occasional drink. I will not send ANYTHING that will get him in trouble. You send him something that is "Not Allowed" and he gets caught.. he's the one who gets in trouble and it will show in his service records.I don't know about other branches, but with the Navy, it will reflect badly on his evals and could cause him to loose out on a promotion." Then things start to get heated.
A few others posted similar to what I said, some being a little more blunt in saying how stupid they thought it was. Then a comment that started the "Battle". (her spelling errors were left untouched)
"im sorry but for what our men do i think they deserve a sip or two or a hit or two off a smokeor a bottle. Sometimes its nice. Think about this. A high stress situation u miss your family your hot your tired and just something to make you forget for a split second what ever it may be wouldnt you want that? I think its unfair to critisize what these women have to done just because it makes their husbands happy for a little shot bottle of whiskey or a pack of smokes. Thats not fair to tell them they are in the wrong. For what our spouses do is hard. "
This rubbed me the wrong way, but I kept my composer as best as possible. My reply:
"It's ok for them to want to relax, but doing something to impair one's judgment while in a war zone, where they are fighting alongside other mean in women.. isn't the way to do it. This is their job.. and if you have a job and you are caught "Drinking on the job" do you not get fired? Yes, you do!
So, why does it make it ok for someone who is "Working".. and working with a Gun alright to drink?"
There were several other comments from other ladies as well. But I'm not going to post them all.. there are tons. But all on the same side as I am.
Her Reply to me: "@ christina i feel sorry for you." <- That irritated me even more. She also went on to tell me I needed to "chill", That it wasn't a big deal. She went on to say things about how it doesn't affect others.. etc.
My reply: "You feel sorry for me? Because I would like to keep my husband and the men and women he serves with safe?"
Some girls who agree with me posted : "Ok I'm about to get rude........[girl's name]..... SERIOUSLY?? That was over the line. You are simply being given reasons why our opinions is that it is NOT a good idea. I pray to God that my husband is not working with someone who's wife is sending him alcohol because THERE'S A REASON THEY AREN'T SUPPOSED TO HAVE IT. It is a major safety issue for 1. YOUR spouse for 2. everyone around him. Are the risks of sending contraband seriously worth a court martial, dishonorable discharge, or DEATH?"
The girl who thinks it's ok to send it never replied to anyone BUT me. saying
"Worry about you and yours and not what some one else does. Its not your spouse and their spouse isnt deployed with yours. Worry about keeping you and yours safe not some one else. Its like you're trying to tell some one else how to raise thier kid."
A few other comments from others:
"wow acohol ? seriously ? yeah hey lets be irresponsable and send some soldiers who are in war, carry weapons and can get attacked by surprise some alc ! yay ! so when they are drunk ( which btw goes against regulations fyi) they wont be able to be 100% there for when one of those attacks happen , endangering not only themselfs but theire entire .unit....yeah definatly a good idea....btw im case no one noticed i was being sarcastic."
"uve got to understand where we are coming from, what if for some reason their tolerance isnt as high as it was before they left and u send alcohol thinking oh its ok....well think would u want to get a call saying ur soldiers been wounded badly or killed...or even find out ur best friends husband got killed because urs wasnt paying attention to ... have their back...thats why people are getting upset. would u want another wife to send it and urs get killed because they send it to their hubby??? u know u would, anybody would"
"Alcohol & guns are just a bad mixture... thats common sense."
"btw [girl's name who thinks it's ok]....just wondering, since you agree with them drinking while in a very very indeed stressful time, do you agree with them just taking a hit or two of a joint ? same thing right ? illegal just the same while deployed than a joint, so do you agree with a drunk and or high soldier to carry a gun around?"
"i think the cigs thing is ridiculous, yes. but smoking cigs doesn't impair the soldier's actions. alcohol(even a small amount) will. like one person previously stated u wouldnt drink on the job would u? well our soldiers are on the job 24/7 while they are deployed. for those of you who think i'm overreacting, well think what u want. i'm so glad the wives where i am at wouldn't ever think of being so stupid."
"call me overreacting if you want. but my husbands life and therefore my FAMILIES well being relies on every other soldier in his unit. so ONE wife sending booze affects every other wives potentially. im NOT saying you are a bad person. i AM saying you made a poor choice and still apparently dont see the issue with it. how BAD would you feel if the next time you sent booze an incident occurred and your hubby and one of his battle buddies were injured? there is a lifelong guilt trip right there"
Then the girl posted this: (the part that set me off-the highlighted parts)
"sorry drama ladies my hsuabdn isnt a soldier. Mine floats around so yes i do agree if my husband gets a shot or two! It has nothing to do with me i think of my husband first. If he asks for a pack of cigs and i cant send them but they are legal then there is something up. See its different because ... my husband doesnt walkk around with a gun instead he plays with real toys. So of course im not worried!! "
My Reply: "[girl's name], Now I'm pissed. MY husband is in the Navy as well. He doesn't just "FLOAT AROUND" My husband works his ass off, and My husband carries a gun ON THE SHIP. So yes, YOU could be affecting MY HUSBAND directly by the stupidity of what you are doing."
Another girl to the "Ok with Alcohol" girl:
"Wow.....so because he's on a boat you think he's safe? Sure they would have liked to have known that during Pearl Harbor. Sure hope that ship never gets called to back up an important mission."
Me to the girl above: "I agree. And every ship can affect other ships.. their schedule, their ports.. everything."
I left it at that. Now going back to that thread. Am I wrong to be heated? What is your opinion on Sending your SO alcohol when you KNOW it's not allowed?
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