Tangled Up In You

I chose Staind's Tangled Up In You for my first "While your away" post because the song kick started this deployment.




"The song kick started your deployment?" Yes.

The night before my husband left, we wrote letters to each other. I also got him a card. The card being a sappy "I love you" card. Since I had already wrote him a long letter, and the card said pretty much what I thought- What else could I add? This song popped in my head. It's perfect. It's so how I feel about my husband. I wrote the lyrics on the inside of the card and reminded him I added it to a playlist I put on his ipod for me and him.

"You're the pills that take away my pain. You’re the light that helps me find my way."
When I'm hurting, upset, my husband is my comfort. He makes things better. When I feel lost, alone.. He is always there to remind me that he's right there with me, reminding me that I'm never alone.

"You're the hand I have to hold as I grow old."
He's the only person I could ever see myself growing old with. The only person I want to grow old with. If he wasn't, I wouldn't have married him.

"You're the shore when I am lost at sea. You're the only thing that I like about me."
He keeps me grounded. There have been several times where I felt as if I hated myself, nothing was going right- but I loved that I was with him. I felt lucky. The only thing I liked.. was him. He was IS always there to remind me how much I mean to him.

I can relate to every lyric of this song. And I don't think anyone could preform this song any better than Staind.

"I'm still Tangled up in you."

While You're Away

I did a blog contest months ago. To enter the contest, you had to post Your top 10 songs for "While he's away".

I don't believe I ever posted mine.

Now that my husband is away, I listen to my "While you're away" playlist quite often. The songs on my playlist are songs that go with my mood. I have songs that "understand", love songs, happy songs.. etc. The songs are emotions I have felt while going through boot camp, the agony we faced during a-school, the happy moments of being together, the learning of the underways and  the emotions I expect/ expected during deployment. It's a variety, different genres- everything. All music that I love and listen to regularly.

Music is a big part of my life. "Where words fail, music speaks". Growing up- many times, I would be found in my room with oversized headphones on sketching away in my sketch diary. It relaxes me. Helps me think. So many emotions are portrayed through songs. There is always a song that knows just how you feel.

I'm going to start posting a song every week with a song from my playlist. I'm going to try and explain why it's on my playlist. It would be nice to post them as I feel I relate to them, but then there's the possibility that I don't feel some of those emotions- who knows. It's too early into the deployment to say how tomorrow, next week, next month or 5 months from now my emotions will play on me. So, I'm just going to go with it.

Tomorrow will be my first post. My goal is to post every Saturday. But I'm not committing to that day. As we all know, I don't blog on a set schedule. I just go with the flow... There may be a day in the mid week where I relate to a song in some way- Happy, sad or pissed at the world and I will post it.

I think this is another way for me to express the emotions I go through this deployment because Music is something I can relate to so well.

I hope you all enjoy.

1st post will be posted in the a.m.

My Life is like a Country Song

I was working on my Photography website, and placing print orders when I got to thinking about the lyrics to a song a friend posted. Lyrics made me smile, and most of all- they made me think of my husband.

I'm not a die-hard country fan- I know, being from Nashville, most expect that I am. I do however like country, and there are a few songs that tend to stick with me. Tend to make me think a lot.. hence the blog.

The Song "Bring It On Home" by Little Big Town now has a new meaning to me.. or maybe I just never really listened to the lyrics.

"You've got someone here who wants to make it all right. Someone that loves you more than life right here. You've got willing arms that'll hold you tight, a hand to lead you on through the night right here. I know your heart can get all tangled up inside. But don't you keep it to yourself. When your long day is over and you can barely drag your feet, the weight of the world is on your shoulders... I know what you need, bring it on home to me.

You know I know you like the back of my hand. You know I'm gonna do all that I can right here. Gonna lie with you 'til you fall asleep. When the morning comes, I'm still gonna be right here. Yes, I am. So take your worries and just drop them at the door. Baby, leave it all behind. When your long day is over and you can barely drag your feet, the weight of the world is on your shoulders... I know what you need, bring it on home to me.

Baby, let me be your safe harbor. Don't let the water come and carry you away. When your long day is over and you can barely drag your feet, the weight of the world is on your shoulders... I know what you need, bring it on home to me."

Above is some of the lyrics to the song. 
My husband may not be coming home at the end of each day. But the way he and I are looking at this deployment.. It's just one long work day.

Like the song, I will be here waiting. When his "Long Day" [deployment] is over, and he can barely drag his feet- He's going to be exhausted, there is no doubting that, I'm going to be that person he comes home to. He will have someone at home who wants to make everything alright, everything the song says.

I hear people say,  "My life is like a country song".. usually when I hear someone say that, they don't mean it in a positive way. However, This song makes me think my life IS like a country song, and in no way negative. I'm proud to relate to this song because I love my husband more than anything in the world and I will be the one he comes home to. The one who waits for him.

I do love Little Big Town, and they are amazing live. I do not know why I haven't put this song on my "While you're away" playlist. It's the perfect song for it. Needless to say, It will be very soon.